Treasure Seeking

Last night I kept falling asleep while I was talking to God. Fighting it horribly. Sleep, not God! Telling myself it was a sin to fall asleep in the middle of prayer. Asking myself how I feel when my husband falls asleep in the middle of a conversation.

And then something came to me.

If I fall asleep talking to God, and I reach for my Bible as soon as I wake up to read His Word, then that makes Him the first and last thing on my mind each day. 

If I fall asleep while talking to God, there isn’t time for the worry, the doubt, the endless to-do list for tomorrow to creep in and rob me of the peace He gives me. I can sleep in His peace.

Do we treasure our time with God?

Treasure.

I’ve been seeing that word a lot lately. It keeps coming up in conversations I’m having. It isn’t a word I use frequently in life. So, yes, I’ve noticed the abundance of treasure in conversation.

I’ve also notice another theme in conversation. Clutter. Junk. Abundance. Overflow. 

Those of you know me IRL, know those words describe me. I am Queen of the Clutter. In most areas of life.

And yesterday as I talked about my attachment to my “stuff”, I got to wondering about my treasure. What do I treasure?

Do not lay up for yourselves treasures here on earth, where moth and rust destroy and where thieves break in and steal; but lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroys, and where thieves do not break in and steal. For wherever your treasure is, there your heart will be also. Matthew 6:19-21 NKJV

Treasure is something of great value. It’s typically considered irreplaceable. 

All of my “stuff” can be destroyed. 

All. Of. It.

God can’t. 

And whatever I consider treasure, well, that’s where my heart is.

Is my heart in my stuff or in my God?

But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you. Matthew 6:33 NKJV

Seek. Yes, there’s my word for the year.

What am I seeking? 

Twelve days since the epiphany: You haven’t been on sabbatical, you’ve been hiding in a cave.

I won’t lie. I wanted to deny. No, God. Sabbatical. Rest. Restoration. Revival. I’m taking time to learn instead of lead.

His response was clear. You’re sulking. Not on sabbatical. There’s a difference. 

My stuff, at the time, was mental clutter that had convinced me that seeking rest was more important than seeking God. Somehow in following His instructions, He did tell me well over a year ago to go on sabbatical, I chose to treasure the rest instead of the One giving me rest.

A sulking sabbatical. 

Although it hurt, it was just the kick in the pants I needed. 

A good man out of the good treasure of his heart brings forth good; and an evil man out of the evil treasure of his heart brings forth evil. For out of the abundance of the heart his mouth speaks. Luke 6:45

I’ve looked back over things I’ve said in the past few months and well, the abundance of my heart wasn’t very good. I wasn’t seeking the right thing. Rest was simply bringing more sulking and less Savior. 

Somehow rest became synonymous for less Bible study and less spiritual conversation and less transparent conversations with God. Rest became hiding in a cave instead of running to a Father who wants me to seek Him with my whole heart.

Are you searching for something? Placing your trust in things that can be destroyed? Hiding in a cave?

Let me encourage you to search the scriptures, cry out God, or if you need a human to help ask a friend, pastor, family member, or even message me and find true treasure in God. 

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Think Twice, Speak Once
Focus on the Future=Failure in the Present
I’m Thinking About Giving Up
Long-term Investments or Long-term Loss

14 comments

  • I have to admit that I’m not religious, but religion does give people hope/ comfort 🙂

    • Sophie, Thank you for dropping in to visit. 🙂 I hope you will come back again. I don’t know about being religious, but I am a Christian who lives her life loudly. I hope through that life I can show people how to find hope and comfort!

  • Interesting read 🙂

    • Nabanita,

      Thank you for stopping in! I hope you will consider coming back to read more. Please feel free to jump right in the conversation!!!! All are welcome and encouraged to offer their perspective.

  • Amen, Carrie. This part particularly spoke to me: “If I fall asleep while talking to God, there isn’t time for the worry, the doubt, the endless to-do list for tomorrow to creep in and rob me of the peace He gives me. I can sleep in His peace.”

  • Carrie,
    Thanks for being so transparent. I truly enjoy your sharings each day!

    • Thanks for stopping in to read again today, Ilesha! My prayer is to live my life ‘clear like plastic wrap’. Sometimes I think we pretty up Christianity so much that it looks almost impossible to attain. When people look at my life, they see a broken, messed up, sinner who is loved by God in spite of all the failings. I don’t want to put off an illusion. I want people to see just how much God can love, transform, and use an everyday, real-life woman.

  • I wasn’t sure whether I should mention this or not, but this post actually inspired some haphazard self-reflection for me: http://yourselfcared.blogspot.com/2014/01/before-i-wake.html

    • Sonya,

      You have no idea how much this made my morning!!!!! 😀 Thank you so much for sharing it here. I’m glad to know that you were blessed.

      I am glad to have discover your other blog through this!

  • I have tendency to clutter also and fill my life with unnecesary. Something I fight every day. It’s funny sad to see how I cling on to the letter and forget the reason why I was doing what I was doing.

    • Joanna,

      Clutter has a way of doing that to us. Making us forget the why. It happens to me physically, spiritually, and emotionally. I’m trying to learn to turn all of it over to God that way I can lighten my load. He already has it anyway!

      Thanks for stopping in to chat again!

  • I agree with so much you have written here. I always fall asleep talking to God; it’s usually the only way I can fall asleep. It’s definitely my comfort.

    I also am similar when it comes to the stuff of this world (material items as well as worries, stress, etc.) I am often overwhelmed and turn away from God.

    Thank you for this post. It has been a good reminder for me.

  • Seek is my word for the year too. I chose seek based on Matt. 6:33 and Matt 7:7. God has been really been talking to me through my journey of seeking His Kingdom and His Righteousness. I hope you enjoy your journey as much as me. I too am a collector of stuff. I used to think it was my worst characteristic but then I took an inventory and that identified this tendency of mine as my biggest strength. Was I shocked or what? As long as I share my resources and use them for God it is a good thing. My problem is that it is not organized stuff so I can not always find what I need when I need it. Maybe God will ask me to spend some of my time seeking to get organized for His use.