Trading a Calloused Heart for a Clean Heart


This morning we attended what most would consider a traditional worship service. You know, songs from a Baptist hymnal accompanied by a piano and organ. 

Several of the hymns were songs about the Spirit. They weren’t songs I grew up singing, but songs I was introduced to as an adult when we changed churches and denominations as a family.

I’m not going to lie. They were frequent use songs in the church we transplanted into, and I really didn’t care for them. 

Except this morning something was different. Perhaps the fact that the congregation truly did bring the Spirit into the house with them and He was being set free in this traditional worship service?

Create in me a clean heart, O God. Renew a loyal spirit within me. Do not banish me from your presence, and don’t take your Holy Spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of your salvation, and make me willing to obey you. Then I will teach your ways to rebels, and they will return to you. Psalms 51:10-13

In the car this evening as I was driving home alone, a song I was pretty confident I knew came on the radio. But as I listened to the words of the first verse, I found myself thinking perhaps I didn’t know what this song was about.

“Make me broken
So I can be healed
Cause I’m so calloused
And now I can’t feel”
“Keep Making Me” Sidewalk Prophets


I sat in the driveway and kept listening instead of singing.

Lord, I’ve prayed this very prayer. I’ve been so hurt that the walls I’ve build seem impenetrable. Break my heart, Lord. Give me passion for someone or something again. 

It’s been several years since I prayed that prayer. I told an elder what I prayed, and she told me I was crazy. That I didn’t know what I was asking.

What happened since that time is sad. I don’t know if you can say I got what I prayed for and responded poorly or not, but the result is that the walls around my heart have grown taller and thicker in effort to protect me from pain and hurt. Those very walls that keep the bad things out, however, also keep good things from getting in.

Calloused. Yes, I’m there.

After I listened, truly listened to the lyrics, I had to look and see if there was any Scriptural basis for this song. I found this devotion. 

“If we’re made lonely then we’ll know what its like when we truly find love.”

Lonely. Yes. I have been. I am.

Broken? If I were to peel back the adhesive you wouldn’t be able to see a person for all the cracks and crevices.

Today I’m feeling something a little different, however. I’m feeling hope.

My prayer is a little different today. Today my prayer is Psalms 51:10-13.

I’m exchanging calloused for a clean heart, lonely for a renewed loyal spirit, and broken for a restoration of the joy of salvation. 

Are you ready to trade your negatives for His positives? What can you lay down today?

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4 comments

  • I really love old hymns. They make so much feel better

    • Katherine,

      That is the true test of a spiritual song, isn’t it? Does it continue to touch our hearts years later? Thank you so much for dropping in to chat. Please stop by again.

  • Sometimes it is hard to be vulnerable for fear that you will be hurt; however, it can also open you up to many blessings.

    • Adrienne,

      Fear is a powerful thing. It can keep us from experiencing more good than bad. That has been one of the biggest lessons I have learned in the past few years. I have to face the fear head on. Acknowledge it. Accept it. And do it anyway.

      Thank you for stopping by! Please come back again!