I’m Thinking About Giving Up

I’m thinking about giving up. Yes, giving up.

I quit.

What? You don’t think that’s a good, or “right” attitude?

I’ve had dreams, plans, and goals for as long as I can remember. I cling to the hope that God has great plans for my life. I still believe God has great plans for my life.

But I have to wonder, how many of those plans have I walked right past in my quest to get to the “great” plans I’m sure He has for my life?

I’ve blogged in the past week about focusing on the past and on focusing on the future. I’m afraid that my focus on both of those places has led me to be an ineffective Christian.

So, I’m thinking about giving up. I have a feeling that there are some opportunities staring me right in the face that I’m tempted to walk right past because they don’t seem to fit in with my definition of what God’s great plans for my life might be.

I have a feeling that my definition of “great” and God’s definition of “great” are two entirely different definitions. I have been so focused on doing large scale things, that I’ve been ignoring the everyday scale things that I should be doing.

I’m thinking of giving up the idea that He’s called me to follow Him to someplace without giving me the GPS coordinates and accepting that He’s called me to follow Him to right here right now.

I’m thinking about giving up my dreams of working in full-time ministry to minister where God has planted me.

I’m thinking of giving up my dreams of reaching thousands of people for Christ, and instead reaching for the one standing right in front of me.

I’m thinking of giving up my desires to be more in the future and just be His in the present.

I’m thinking about giving up the idea that I’ll have more time, money, and ability when my kids are graduated and gone or just next year.

I’m thinking about giving up my goals to leave a legacy and just live a daily walk.

I’m thinking about giving up. Plain and simple.

Let go and let God. I’ve heard it for years. Even been known to counsel others with the same phrase.

But today, letting go sounds a lot like giving up, and I think I need to give up a lot of things.

I’ve also heard the road to hell is paved with good intentions. It has always been my intention to make a difference in the world. And yet it seems that in the first 34 years all I’ve seemed to make is excuses.

I don’t believe God Almighty will look at anyone of us and say, “Well thought about good and faithful servant.”

If all I do is think, dream, plan, but never actually do any one thing, then all my labor is definitely in vain because I never did any labor.

Some of you are cringing at my words today. Some of you are typing me words of encouragement before you even finish reading. You are wanting to remind me that God gave me those dreams and the desires hidden deep within my heart.

I agree with you. However, if I waste my entire life waiting for conditions to be “perfect” for those big dreams and desires to come into play, I’ll never accomplish one thing for Christ. I’m wasting my life waiting…

Jesus called people away. Away from their lives. Away from their dreams. Away from their goals. Away from their families…living and dead. Away from everything they had planned.

Jesus calls them away from comfort, even that which is unknown comfort, and into faith. Give up everything you hold on to and follow Me where ever I go doing whatever I ask you to do. If you do, you will receive many times what you give up in eternity.

I’m thinking about giving up my false assurance of today for a guaranteed assurance for all eternity. All of the sudden, giving up seems like more gain than loss.

And Jesus, walking by the Sea of Galilee, saw two brothers, Simon called Peter, and Andrew his brother, casting a net into the sea; for they were fishermen. Then He said to them, “Follow Me, and I will make you fishers of men.” They immediately left their nets and followed Him. Going on from there, He saw two other brothers, James the son of Zebedee, and John his brother, in the boat with Zebedee their father, mending their nets. He called the, and immediately they left the boat and their father, and followed Him. Matthew 4:18-22

He who loves father or mother more than Me is not worthy of Me. And He who loves son or daughter more than Me is not worthy of Me. And he who does not take his cross and follow after Me is not worthy of Me. Matthew 10:37-39

After these things He went out and saw a tax collector named Levi, sitting at the tax collector named Levi, sitting at the tax office. And He said to him, “Follow Me.” So he left all, rose up, and followed Him. Luke 5:27-28

Then a certain scribe came and said to Him, “Teacher, I will follow You wherever You go.” And Jesus said to him, “Foxes have holes and birds of the air have nests, but the Son of Man has nowhere to lay His head.” Then another of His disciples said to Him, “Lord, let me first go and bury my father.” but Jesus said to him, “Follow Me, and let the dead bury their own dead.” Matthew 8:19-22

So when Jesus heard these things, He said to him, “You still lack one thing. Sell all that you have and distribute to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven; and come, follow Me.” But when he heard this, he became very sorrowful, for he was very rich. And when Jesus saw that he became very sorrowful, He said, “How hard it is for those who have riches to enter the kingdom of God! For it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter the kingdom of God.” And those who heard it said, “Who then can be saved?” But He siad, “The things which are impossible with men are possible with God.” Them Peter said, “See we have left all and followed You.” So He said to them, “Assuredly, I say to you, there is no one who has left house or parents or brothers or wife or children, for the sake of the kingdom of God, who shall not receive many times more in this present time, and in the age to come eternal life.” Luke 18: 22-30