For many years I have had the dream, the vision, of running a group home for children. Over the years I have entertained different concepts of this home, but the overall vision has always been there.
When my own children were toddlers Chris and I traveled to tour Mercy Ministries in Nashville, Tennessee. I found out about the home while reading Echoes of Mercy by Nancy Alcorn the Ministry’s founder. I was touched first by the book, and then by the ministry taken place through their facilities.
Helping girls and young women find freedom through God’s mercy.
Isn’t it what Christians are called to do? I suppose some of us have a heart for this particular ministry more than others, but I believe that we must put our ministry where are mouths are.
If we’re going to speak out against things, sin, then we must be willing to offer a practical solution and be willing to hold hands and walk through the fire with those fighting demons.
You could say I have a heart for this.
I don’t, however, have the right credentials or the financial backing to make this a reality.
My lack doesn’t diminish the power of my dreams and visions.
That’s why today I was slightly jealous. Ok, slightly is a HUGE understatement.
Today I listened to someone talk my dream and vision. I listened as they stated they were looking into what it would take to make it happen. For them.
I was immediately sad. And then I was jealous.
This is my dream. My heart. And someone else is considering going after it.
My Christian spirit should have rejoiced, should have jumped in and volunteered to help, should have shouted praise that someone else cared enough to get involved and make a difference….
Should have, but didn’t.
11 For we hear that there are some who walk among you in a disorderly manner, not working at all, but are busybodies. 12 Now those who are such we command and exhort through our Lord Jesus Christ that they work in quietness and eat their own bread.
13 But as for you, brethren, do not grow weary in doing good. 2 Thessalonians 3:11-13
I’m afraid I fell into the category of busybody today. Maybe everyday leading to today. What have I been doing towards this dream?
Nothing other than being frustrated that it can’t just “happen”.
So why in the world would I begrudge someone else for working to make a difference in the world? For being willing to at least look into the possibility.
Next time I see that individual I really need to adjust my attitude and encourage them.
“But as for you, brethren, do not grow weary in doing good.” 2 Thessalonians 3:13
And instead of feeling cheated and jealous, maybe I’ll offer to help out. Knowing that if the doors ever open for me to meet my dreams in reality, there is never a competition when it comes to taking in kids with no place else to go. There are always more kids than homes.